A Talk with LC
The lights were dim in the bar last night. They’d had a power outage earlier in the day. Only their downstairs was open and it was mostly candle lit. We had to move the candle around to read our menus and see our food. While we waited for the kitchen to start offering their limited menu, we had a few beers. And we talked.
Alcohol is funny sometimes. It loosens our tongues and allows us to say the things we may have been holding back. And so it was that without annoyance or reticence that we started to talk about our relationship.
I was finally able to tell him that he has to forgive me for what happened with Big or we probably won’t make this work. I told him I would keep trying, but that he needs to let it go. He agreed. We talked about how we felt and why we both hurt before. And we talked about now.
I was able to tell him how different he is. How I feel insecure because I feel him holding himself back. How all that passion he unleashed in March is gone again. How those were the things that made me fall for him in the first place and I miss them so much. He said he’d do better.
We talked about our time apart too. How I wished every day that I was with him and not Big. Every time Big asked where we should go to lunch, and I knew we’d end up at Wendy’s because all the places I wanted to go were places he would refuse. How I knew Big and I would fail, I always did know, because we were too different and I would never be happy. And he told me how every time he went out on a date, and he went out on many, he wished it was me instead.
I was allowed to tell him that I am still afraid he will leave me. And he bluntly told me he wouldn’t. He was allowed to tell me that if anything like Big ever happened again he would be gone forever. I told him that mistake will never be repeated. He told me he believes me.
When we got back to my place, I felt calm and reassured. For the first time since we got back together, I felt peaceful and sure of us. He told me he was glad we talked because he knows this was all something I’d been holding back for a long time now. Then we climbed into bed together and he held me as I fell asleep.
It was a good night.
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Good for you, hon. A nice talk always makes things feel better, doesn’t it?
It really does. I’m all pro-communication.
I has the goosebumps from reading this.
It’s that good for me too.
Even though I do not know all about you two, it sounds so right, and I am REALLY glad for you!!!
It feels right too, now that I’m finally letting it.
Sounds like a GREAT night!
It was!
Just had to come out of lurker status, to say I am so happy for you both. Of course, I have been rooting for LC all along.
I;m just happy you came out of lurker status. And of course, glad to hear LC is well-liked.
I’m really happy for you, too.
Thanks hon. You’ve been really supportive through all of this too. I appreciate that.
Oh, I’m so happy for you hon!
Yay! You’re ok enough to comment! And thanks.
I am so glad you guys talked!
Me too. It’s a serious weight off my shoulders.
Communication is so vital to any relationship. Why is it so hard to say the important things? I’m so impressed you were able to say what you needed to say and glad that you got the reassurances that you needed.
(And please don’t hate me for my comment a couple weeks ago.)
I promise, I don’t hate you. If dissenting opinions made me hateful, I’d shut down comments all together. I’m glad to have you as a reader. No worries.
Another lurker coming out….So glad that u are back together with LC and things are going so well!
Good to hear from you! And yes, I have hope for us and what we may be.