And in the afternoon
He asked me not to run from him anymore. He asked me to talk things over, said we could work it out. Said he wanted me to stay. He was supposed to help me stay.
Until this afternoon when he ended it. He said I wanted more than he had to offer. And in the end, that’s probably true.
And so a year and a half almost to the day from when we met, we are over. I didn’t see that coming in the light of this morning. Didn’t see it coming at all.
It does not bother me to say, “This isn’t love…”
Cause if you don’t want to talk about it
Then, it isn’t love
And I guess I’m gonna have to live with that
But I’m sure there’s something in a shade of gray
Or something in between,
And I can always change my name, if that’s what you mean
- “Anna Begins” by Counting Crows
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I’m so sorry for what you are going through and the roller coaster of a weekend you experienced.
Take your time and heal, but not too much – Your Friends and Readers will be here waiting for your return!
XOXO
Oh I’m not going anywhere. May blog a bit differently but I’m still here.
Ugh, I hate those shades of gray!
I hope you bounce back soon. In the mean time there’s always good friends, comfort food and exercising, that last one always helps me out.
It’s all shades of gray though, isn’t it? And thanks.
Oh, lady…I’m so sorry.
It’s ok. And thanks.
Very sad to hear that it’s finally over.
Me too. But it was rather inevitable.
Jane, I am sorry you are hurting. And just a reminder – in case you forget – that you do not want too much, even if he thinks so.
It maybe too much for him to handle, but it is not too much and for the right guy, it will be just right – you will be just right, when you are ready.
Oh I know. I didn’t ask for anything but to see him more than once a week. I’ve got no illusions this time. Can’t be with someone if you can’t even spend time with them.
That was totally out of the blue. But the right guy could show up the same way. Here’s hoping.
Looking back, it wasn’t as surprising as I had thought. At least I can shut the door now, you know?
((hug))
Thanks.
wow- i only recently found your site and just went back to read all of the mr. big entries. i’m so sorry! i am going through the exact, i mean EXACT same thing with my own big right now. hugs to you!
If it’s really exactly the same? Then hugs to you hon. Also? Run.
I hope he’s dead to you now. I really do.
He is completely DTM. I assure you. There will be no more.
So sorry to hear this! One of the worst feelings in the world is when you try to be so, so, SO cautious about a relationship to the point that the guy has to convince you to take a chance on him…and then he’s the one to end it. Here’s hoping that you will bounce back from this and that life will bring much, much better things your way.
Well thank you. In the end, I realize I simply knew better and that’s why I had to work so hard to stay. I shouldn’t have put in the effort, that’s all.
I’m sorry. You know I wasn’t a big fan of how Big treated you but I know, deep down, you were holding out hope that he was “the one.” I’m hoping that this sitution has shown you that you deserve to be cherished by whomever is LUCKY ENOUGH to finally make you theirs. It just takes time, patience and a lot of trial and error. You’ll get there. Have faith.
Thanks hon, I appreciate that.