Indecision
I am at an impasse. See, the beauty of this blog is that no one knows who I am. So I can rant about dating disasters or wax poetic about my latest crush. Freely even, because they’ll never know. So what then happens if I meet someone as an indirect result of it? I mean, you know, someone who reads the blog?
See, if I go on about developing a school girl crush on him, he’ll know. And if I get the slightest bit optimistic, he’ll see me breaking all my rules. And if I end up being kind of excited about a new possibility, he’ll know I’m not as guarded as I seem.
It breaks all the rules in more ways than one. I have never attempted to use the qualifier “too” so often when describing one person. Too young, too far away, too impossible… and yet. Last night for the first time in I can’t even remember how long (except I can and the truth is even worse) I stayed up way too late talking on the phone just hoping not to hang up yet. And when we finally did, I may have seen him in my dreams.
So he asked what I would call him here and I said I didn’t know. I still don’t. Like I said, I’m at an impasse.
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Wow. I got nothing on this one. No one I’ve dated post-divorce knows about this blog. I’ve not met any of my readers and as best I know none of them want to date me. I have no idea who you could be talking about but sometimes it’s best to open up, see what happens, if it fails it fails but you’ll never know if you don’t try. (cheesy, I know)
I have to try. Between you and me (and everyone else here)? He’s the best man I’ve known in quite a long time.
Perhaps you could view this as a lovely opportunity instead of an awkward impasse:
If things go well and you blog glowing comments, this guy’s ego will be stroked, and he’ll be encouraged to continue with the good behavior.
If things go bad………well, then perhaps he’ll learn the error of his ways……or at least be shamed into never reading your blog again, for the truth hurts!
Awwww, you know what? I’ve been talking to him for days and can’t find fault other than the situational stuff of this. He deserves the ego stroke, trust me.
Carrie rocks. She is right. COMPLETELY. And if it weren’t for your blog, you’d never have met the best man you’ve known in a long time. So don’t let one reader, this new Mr. Rocks, change your writing.
Just my two cents. Although I believe I may have heard that from you once … Hmmm
Why is it every shred of advice I give you eventually comes back to bite me in the ass? Positivity it is. And I’ll get you one of these days.
*dancing around happily*
How does this new boy stack up against the classics? Mr. Big? The Friend? Even Asian Grocery Guy? What are we looking at here?
By the way, please don’t change your writing. I love your blog!
Need some time to analyze, but at first blush? AGG was a kind of a freak. Beat hands down. The Friend wants nothing to do with me in that way. Also beat. Mr. Big doesn’t like to sleep over, touch in public, talk on the phone, commit, or have feelings. I’m thinking he’s not going to stack up.
Still, need time to know for sure. Ask me next week.
Hmmm…I know how you feel since some of my friend/readers have given me some sharp words for things I have written on my blog. My vote, for what it’s worth…do what you feel comfortable doing.
As a reader of your blog, this dude should know you will share things/overanalyze shit he does, etc. Most guys don’t have their pros and cons staring them in the face in black and white so perhaps this is a good learning experience for you both.
Go with your gut.
Stupid gut. It has a lot to say about this too. Wish it would take a rest down there!
I agree with Newmie… keep doing what you are doing as it obviously attracted him in the first place. I just hope he doesn’t have to read your blog to understand where he truly stands with you.
Trust me, he knows more about where he stands than you do. I’m good like that.
Try a different approach and be open with this one. It is okay to let him see you through the good, the bad and the ugly days. It will be okay… take the risk… remember the should of’s, would of’s, could of’s get you if you don’t… good luck
He has access to all of these archives. He can see me at just about my worst if he chooses and there’s not much I can do about that.
WOW, could this be the one who will change the name of this blog? I hope so! Good for you Jane, wishing you all the best!
Nah, I won’t change the name. No matter how it all turns out.
You just keep on keeping on and then call me and tell me everything that you decide not to post. If you decide not to post it.
I’ll call you.
Wow, that’s a tough one. I handle it a little differently on my blog, where my face and name are out there for everyone to see. I tend not to give details on relationships I am currently in, unless it won’t upset the preson or the relationship. That’s why most of my dating/hookup stories are things that don’t pan out. If something does pan out, I usually keep it under wraps to respect the privacy of the person I’m seeing. After we break up, I can spill the beans to my hearts content.
(That said, I am decidedly single at the moment, so I’m not hiding any juicy stories! lol)
What should you do? Go with your gut. Follow your intuition. Treat others (including this guy) with compassion.
That’s why my face and name aren’t out there. So I can be honest without hurting people. I’m working on striking the balance with this one though.