I think the reason I look for where a relationship or date might end is because my mind can’t comprehend that everything will be perfect and we’ll end up married. Hence it will end at some point, so why not think about it?

I’ve witnessed first hand, through my parents one divorce and then a marital split, that things rarely last and I concede that cynicism has crept in (read my site for proof of this!).

I think as well I don’t like the idea of emotionally hurting others, if that makes sense. I can take being hurt (I’m not being a martyr) by not having feelings returned but the idea of hurting someone else is harder to deal with, especially when I’ve been in their position before.

Maybe I’m too honest and I just don’t want someone thinking I misled or deceived them.

If you figure out what the deal is, let me know so I can fix my own bidness too. Thanks in advance.